I wish you would've put yourself in my suitcase.

(FYI...I wrote this on Friday)

Right now I am at work thinking about my co-worker. This is not new, he has been a major distraction for the past couple months. He is a composer, indie music lover and deep thinker. All of this is even more attractive due to the fact that he is a co-worker.

Our relationship began with flirting then moved to making playlists for each other and eventually to hanging out after work.

There are several problems with this. One being the fact that our company has about 10 employees and is dwindling. Every time we talk it is obvious throughout the office. Also, when he walks past my desk in his tight hipster outfit, smiling at me or when I come into work and find a playlist on my computer, I am entirely distracted. My productivity has reached an all time low. The third problem is that he has become one of the few things that even motivates me to go to my shitty job. When he isn't there my mood changes for the worst.

Yesterday when I was thinking about the post I would write about him, I assumed he would continue to be around for a while.

I was wrong.

This morning he pulled me into his office and told me he quit and had plans of moving across the country. Him quitting isn't a problem, the relocation to the west coast is though. There goes one of the biggest crushes I've had in years. He is going to remain in the city for a few more months and of course we already have several plans to hang out. He will be leaving eventually though and thinking about that breaks my heart a little bit. I find it hard to make deep connections with guys, especially single, datable guys. Honestly, I get nervous when I am with him. Definite butterflies.

Sad yet wishful indie music is on repeat and I am trying to live in the now. My goal is to not get any more attached than I already am.